October baby.I'm trying really hard to be here...

WELL...

I have to constantly remind myself that "this too shall pass", I'm a mess and every little thing breaks me.I've learned the last two weeks that i'm not afraid to appear vulnerable or to cry. As shitty as my relationship was in the end it still hurts.I think what hurts the most was the lack of care and how simple it was for this person to just let go,didn't try to fight me or attempt to compromise.But even then I don't hate him,things just got lost.I think what I was fearing most is loosing the friends that I had made through that relationship.And yesterday morning my drag Motha Alyse reached out to me and told me she missed me and that we HAD to hangout.It made me cry a bit,because she is one of those rare people that I LOVED being around.Her energy,her humor its so friggin contagious.So something so simple made me feel 10000 times better.

                                      Last night it was my cat's 10th birthday,and I was in such a gloom mood that i didn't even light a candle for the poor thing.NOT THAT he cares.He HATES the attention.But yes 10 years how have they gone ? I was 17 when he came into my life.Feels like just yesterday.He's pretty much my familiar.And he's always tried to protect me from people that he didn't like because he could sense their intentions.